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hi i'm kind of drunk and i hate myself (: i'm a terrible friend who lets people walk all over me and cannot tell what is a good thing and what is a bad thing, i can't help anyone around me and i am a useless weight that eats food and sleeps all day. i want to kill myself but i don't think it's bad enough to warrant a visit to a doctor because i can't gauge my own feelings very well and my perception of myself is twisted in a poop loop of never-ending self deprecation and upset. hee hee hee