Sometimes dreams are sweet, loving, and their performance may make one happy. However, other times, dreams can become a nightmare, a dark cliff with no botttom, where you keep falling, expecting to be hit, feel that you will become a pile of lumpy mass and your bones will break, but you never fall.
Well last night, or today I should say, I saw me as a soldier in Attack on Titan world. Although for some weird reasons I possessed gun instead of 3-D manuever gear, my accuracy were terrible, ironic when my accuracy is quite accurate. Titans coming at me, soldiers dying and by that time I was already sweating. And there was a close call, but Levi sir saved me, a way for soldier not in any weird way. Then I also realised that for weak mind, no matter how strong htey might become, in times of fear, they will collapse, similar to my accuracy.
I have then felt the magnitude of fear, the wind of discouragement and the fear a weak soldier may suffer from. But, for all the soliders and legions and other people encoutnering eotenas and behemoths, you have my utter respect.
Although I can't tell myself that it's "unreal" in my dream, but the idea is. In apocalypse the stronger or the clever survives, while many of the masses become targets. And it is still painful to admit death, or imagine such scenario.
For anyone, imagine being a soldier, your equipments not working, enemies approaching, your supplies running short..it's a disastrous situation, I tell you.
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