Well, as it looks like my studies are already over, without me even get to graduate, I wonder I can get any decent job. So I got on my feet to find any out there that can accept people like me, who failed in their study.
I stayed at my hometown, because my former college is nearer. I've a lot of childhood friends here also. Its kinda sad when I meet them, because I can't really get into conversation. All of them where always talking about how they were doing at their college or university, or how hard the exams were. Some of them even didn't know that I've already dropped out, so I can only just answered them with a fake smile on my face. It's kinda sad though, thinking that your life would turn out this way.
It was my best friend and my grandmother who encouraged me to continue study, eventhough I've failed. they say at least I should let myself get educated, and not give up yet given the situation is clear that it is not on my side.
I don't know what to do actually. Reality could be pretty harsh. Sometimes I even feel that my mind's on the verge of breaking down. The pressure of everyone around me, the burden that I felt seems very heavy sometimes.
I know that I should not really write this type of stuff on this blog, but at least I could cool down my head for a moment.
I cant really relate this entry to the GTO anime. But sometimes I feel that I want that kind of person who can teach me about life, be my teacher or brother. The one who can punch my face really hard when I'm feeling down, so that I could snap out of it and get back on my feet.
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