Please ignore the anime relation. I'd like to insert the "The Hating Girl" manga relation, but MAL only accepts anime relations(?)... This manga, even though the title is misleading, is very good and very enjoyable ^.^ b
Anyway, what I want to say or better yet, rant about, is how I am a hating man (btw, it’s completely unrelated to that manga story). And I really hate that fact - see, I really hate everything, the world and even myself! I'm really anti-social (MAX LVL). I hate people especially true in my stupid country.
Because of that I'm like those anime characters that say "I'm *beep* years old, never dated, kissed or even hold hands with the opposite sex." It's sad, it really is.
I don't even think I'm (that) ugly, and I’m not a fat otaku (I weight about 65kg btw). But the problem lies in two facts:
- I am unapproachable (don't like to hang out, I prefer being alone) and...
- I don't even take the approach because I always find faults in others. Like, she has a dog, out! She has piercings/tattoos, out! She's not my type (stupid, wears too much makeup, not my favorite style, ugly, fat, old, whatever...), out! She dated other guys, out! And so on and so on...
And I hate being like this. I do! I really think I want to love and be loved by someone, but the last time I was attracted by someone was over 10 years ago. Every time I see a cute girl out there, I always think to myself a girl like that must have a boyfriend (or be married) for sure, so she’s out!
I’ll rot alone in my own world. And I hate it. I also hate the world of the social people (it’s useless for me to even try to be social, because I hate it). So it's hopeless, right?
Dou shiyou?
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